Using a diary

Using a diary is a lot like being an addict. Smoking is all I have experience of, but stick with my analogy.

You carry it with you at all times
You tend to it, keeping your pen close by
Your addiction takes over, until you reach your all time low- when you catch yourself chronicling dreams (nobody gives a shit) or daily calories (get help).
You give up the diary. You decide that hey- you've got gmail calendars!
But then you come crawling back, always. Diaries provide hope. They indicate order in a world of chaos.
You're back on it again. Writing birthdays, jotting notes... Fuck it, you think, I'll even write in the 'next of kin' and 'doctor's address details' at the front. Oh no.

And it's got you again....